So what do we do now?
We wait and then we wait some more. 12-18 months. It seems like forever but I know the time will fly by. It always does. But when I think about it I kind of have mixed emotions. I want the wait to go by fast because my heart longs for my sweet girl but on the other hand I don't want to wish away a year of my boys lives.
I have been praying that the Lord would just help me to be content in the wait. To have a peace of mind and to wait patiently in Him. I am also asking Him to show me how I can serve Him while I wait. I know above all, my biggest calling at this point, is my boys. To daily teach them by example and guide them as God molds their little hearts. I know that the only way I can do that is to be totally saturated with God's word and on my knees praying.
I am not a morning person(right there with ya Alison *wink*) and it is sometimes hard to find time once the boys are awake to spend time alone with God. I know it is essential tho. If you start your day without it it's like going to battle without any weapons...it's gonna be hard to have a victorious day with nothing to fight off Satan's attacks. So, I am gonna work on being the best me I can be and that is someone who is daily surrendering myself to our sweet Lord and saying yes to what He has for me that day. I am such a work in progress...so thankful I serve a God who loves me so much that He never gives up on me!!!
I know as time goes by I will start to feel the effects of the long wait but right now I am feeling good. We are just so happy to be where we are at this point. Number 90!! That's a big number!! But we are just thrilled to have it!!
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I'm actually a little scared to get on the waitlist for this reason! The paperwork I can do but just waiting sounds soooo hard.
ReplyDeletePlease listen to that little voice saying, "I dont want to wish away a year of my boys lives." Waiting is SO hard to do, I hear that part, but, just wanted to say we waited over a year, many of those months w/ referrals on hold, waiting and waiting for any news, then we were going to have to wait, again, for families ahead of us. We, moved out of our program and agency, prayed and listen to what was next, then felt a strong calling to move to our Ethiopian prog and a new agency. But, what I have walked away with is two thoughts
ReplyDelete1) If only I hadn't wished away the countless hours I spent wanting the time to fly by, while our (3) kiddo grew leaps and bounds, while their lives passed by, a whole year. At times I tuned in and at times I felt burdened by the wait and the unknown. We grew spiritually and in Faith during this time, together, so it wasn't for not. I children learned we dont always have the "easy button" to push, and we cant dictate what time we want, some time it just takes faith. Never the less. . .
2) This time around, I am living life to the fullest, thanking God for each and every day we have as our family of 5 until we become a family of 6. I am more focused on what it seems you have such a better grasp on, accepting and embrasing that God will choose the perfect time.
I hope the months come easier to you as you settle in the new position of waiting and the paperchase behind. Holding your family in our prayers-
mlynne
Love your precious heart! And love knowing you are not a morning person either...makes me feel better! We'll have to hold each other accountable for daily surrendering everything to Him, and for enjoying every moment with our oldest 3 children!
ReplyDeleteKelly, I'm so proud of you. I know that the Lord is using you and Dill in amazing ways in teaching your boys and in reaching so many other people's lives too. You have it all in perspective, I will pray that He will continue to draw you as He is now. You are an inspiration and I love you.
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