Deacon, the doctor, and difficulties!

Conner and Tucker are back today after spending the last two nights with my parents. My mom wanted to spend some time with them before Con man goes back to school. I missed them so much and it was soooo quiet and actually rather boring around here. It was also great to spend some alone time with this little guy...



He turned 10 months old today...he is an absolute joy in my life and I couldn't love him more. I was very thankful for the time we got to spend just me and him. :)

We got our medical exams done this week. Tests on Monday and results and physicals on Wednesday. Everything was good!!



I think Dil is a little zapped from how terribly HOT it has been here...



Well, I had been hearing rumors that the time line from wait list to referral was going up. Sadly enough, I emailed my CW and she said it was true. She said we should now expect to wait 12-18 months but with everything always changing that we needed to just hold loosely to these numbers.

This news was very hard for me to hear. I have been kinda emotional about it. I was getting so excited thinking that I could possibly see our daughters face within a year. Now it could be up to a year and a half. Wow, that really stinks!!

I fought back tears the whole time I was at church last nite but I left encouraged. The message was just what I needed to hear. Thru the book of Nehemiah our pastor shared with us that....

God does amazing things in the most impossible of circumstances.

Since God called us to adopt thru Ethiopia alot has changed:

one trip became two trips
$24,ooo became $30,000
9-12 months became 12-18 months

When I think about these things I sometimes become frustrated and heavy hearted that everything has become more difficult. I wonder why the process takes so long and costs so much money and so much has to go into it. Why God can't just make it easier.

Maybe he doesn't want it to be easy. Maybe he knows that when things are easy and going smooth that I rely on myself more than Him.

I know that even though this is hard and at times emotionally draining that it is absolutely worth it. It drives me to prayer and a closer relationship with Christ. It keeps my eyes on Him and reminds me that my life is totally out of my hands and whatever He wants to happen will happen. And I can trust that it will be for my good.

Impossible circumstances? Maybe. Impossible for God? Definitely not!!

I know that He loves our baby girl more than we do and in His perfect timing He will bring her home to us.

And looking at them Jesus said to them, "With people this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26