Wednesday, July 27, 2011

It's Me Again.

Well, it has been 4 months since my last post. To be honest, I have been having a hard time breaking back into the blog world. So much has happened here and there is so much to say. I am still wrapping my mind around how I want to share it all.

So, for now, I am going to leave you with a simple...

a pic of my little loves...

and a promise I am clinging to...

Monday, March 28, 2011

Gift for our girl!

Where we live it is not always that easy to find brown dolls. So I could not pass this one up when I saw it!

We found it at a very random place. We were with Jeremy, Angie, and our nieces and Jerm needed to stop by the local farm and country store to buy some work boots.

The kids went straight to check out the baby chickens, geese, and ducks that they have for sale. So cute!! Unfortunately, there were tears shed because we could not take one home. :(

They hit the small toy aisle after that and that is where we found the doll.

The best thing about it was the price. Are you ready for this?!?! $3.97!!!

So for now, the doll sets in a basket, waiting to be held and loved by our little girl!!

Monday, March 21, 2011

March Numbers!!

On the girls list we are number...

And our siblings number is...

Exciting to know we are ACTUALLY really close to seeing the 30's and teens!!

I will praise You, O Lord, with my whole heart;
I will tell of all Your marvelous works.
I will be glad and rejoice in You;
I will sing praise to Your name, O Most High.
Psalm 9:1&2

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Choosing to Celebrate!!

We have been looking forward to this milestone for a while!!

We started this journey at #90 and now we are (unofficially)...

That means we have made it halfway through the waitlist!!!

I am choosing to celebrate where the Lord has brought us TODAY!!! What He has already done through us and for us in this journey and what He is yet to do!!!

And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28

Monday, March 7, 2011

6 months!!

That is how long we have been on the waitlist. A half a year...can't believe it!!

With all the talk going on about the changes that may or may not be happening to the Ethiopia program, I am still confidently hoping for the 9-12 month quoted wait time for a referral.

That would mean we are half way there...that is something to be excited about!!

How has the last 6 months been?

There has definitely been some highs and lows. As many of you know, there are alot of emotions that pop up during an adoption process. We have loved celebrating along with each family as they have accepted their referrals. There is such excitement around here in getting to flip over an Africa. We love talking about our little one, praying for her, and dreaming about her becoming part of our family. There has also been several days that have been just plain hard. I think January was the worst for me. The lack of referrals had really gotten me down and was really weighing on me. The feeling of not moving towards our daughter at all was upsetting.

It was then that I could feel the Lord telling me to take a break from it all. Take my mind off of all the circumstances of my life and put it on Him.

Created for Care could not have come at a better time for me. It was just what I needed. I left there feeling encouraged and challenged.

I don't even remember which speaker at the retreat said it but it really stuck out to me. She was talking about the rectangles in our life(tv, phone, computer, books, etc.). How we don't need to be overtaken with them. I knew that this was one of the main areas in my life that the Lord was working in already.

I felt like the computer was becoming a major idol in my life. The list serv, F*cebook, and the blog world were taking up way too much of my time and I was feeling a need to check these things way more than I needed to.

So, as hard as it was and as much as I didn't really want to do it, I set my computer aside and only checked my email once a day. I really talked to the Lord about my life and what things he wanted me to change. What priorities I had out of whack and how he wanted me to fix it.

Here I am a month later.

I don't know what I really expected to happen during this last month but here are the things that did happen...

*I spent way more time with the Lord than I have in a long time and let me tell ya, the time was sweet. I really tried to focus on just being in his presence and learning more about who he is. Just being with him. Being still. I filled our house with praise music everyday and it was so great after the first week or so to hear Conner singing the new songs along with me.

*I kept my laundry done all month!! (People, this may be normal to you but for me this was the biggest accomplishment EVER!!!)

*I spent more time with my boys. I was not just available to them. We played more, talked more, and laughed more. I loved ever second of it!

*My husband commented that I had been so great to him and overly nice. Isn't that what ever wife wants to hear?!?!

All these things were because I had taken the focus off of MYSELF and MY circumstances and put it on CHRIST. What victory we have in the Lord!!

I really felt a renewing in my heart. A peace. A fresh love for the Lord.

I guess Satan didn't like that too much because he started stirring up a few areas in my life. He was trying to get my mind back on the circumstances of my life. On things that I have no control over.

I was reading last nite in Linda Dillow's book Calm My Anxious Heart(I encourage every woman to read this is excellent). She says...

When difficult circumstances come into my life, I hear God's voice saying, "Let me be the Blessed Controller. Surrender. Accept my timing. Accept my ways. Accept my outcome. Let your trust be in Me alone."

It was like God was speaking straight to me through those pages. I have a choice. I can worry over things I have no control over or I can trust in him and him alone. I can pick up my cross daily and follow him or I can try to do things on my own(and fail miserably).

Seems like a no brainer to me. But it can be so hard.

As I ease back into the computer, I can already feel the pull. I don't want to be sucked right back into where I was. I will have to strive to purposely make a choice to say no to it all. To keep my priorities where God wants them.

It all boils down to choices. Daily. Choices.

Monday, February 7, 2011

Created for Care

All I can say is...WOW!!! What an amazing weekend!!

It was so great to finally meet all my "friends" in real life.

I was absolutely thrilled to no end to finally get to see Hilary and Alison!! Alison is one of the first ones I ever emailed and she was so great to answer any questions I had while working on all the paperwork. We ended up being 3 spots apart on the waitlist. Me and Hil also connected thru email and I have had an instant connection with her from the beginning. I know she is praying for me thru my journey and there is no better friend than that. Us three girls are bound and determined to travel together to pick up our little ones from Ethiopia. I SO pray that happens!!

I wanted to get a pic with Kristi and Lucy Lane to put in our little ones baby book. The Lord used them in such a big way to show us His plan for our family to adopt.

I got to room with the most incredible women. I haven't laughed that much in a long time and each one blessed my heart in a different way. Courtney, Mitzi, Lara, and gals ROCK!! Miss you already!!

It was so encouraging to hear each ladies story. So many different phases of the process were represented. From still working on paperwork, to having a HUGE number on the waitlist, being number one on the waitlist, traveling to Ethiopia that night, to having their child home. There is so much you can learn from each other.

The speakers were all great and I left there feeling very encouraged and with my heart stirred in some different areas. I also left there very exhausted since we stayed up late talking at night! Such fun! Can't wait until next year!

Okay, with all that said, over the last couple of weeks I have been feeling like I need to step away from my computer for a while. So, I am taking the MONTH off. No F*cebook, blogging, or listserv. I honestly am not looking forward to it but really feel like it is what the Lord wants me to do. I just need to prioritize some things and kinda refocus. Get my mind off the wait and back on to what it is really about.

Can't wait to catch up in a next post will be our March numbers!! :)

5 months waiting + February numbers!!

It was great to get our number update on the day that we have been waiting 5 months. It was even better to be surprised by the numbers. We were one less than I thought for the girls list!!

So, for a girl, we are number....

And, for siblings...

That is 2 spots on the girls list and 0 spots for siblings.

Baby Girl,

I just want you to know how much we already love you. Conner says that he wishes we could flip over ALL those Africa's in one day and come and get you. As hard as it is to wait, there is also peace in the wait because we know it is all perfectly in His timing to lead us straight to you. We pray for you everyday. It is sometimes hard to know what to pray for because of the uncertainty of your circumstances. But still, we pray on. We love you sister!!